What happens to your marriage when you can't understand your husband anymore?
(United kingdom )
My husband is joining freemasons, I'm full of doubt, so worried about our future, how am I going to live with someone who is full of secrets? He is going to have so many new experiences that will make him a different person, it is his right to choose any path for his life but how about his commitments to me? Are we supposed to choose to do whatever we want when we are married? How am gonna love him when he is a different person, full of secrets? How is he going to love me again when we belong to different worlds? What if he is asked to do something that in my opinion is wrong? Or he find it wrong and wants to go back? What if he is in danger? I'm already scared of him, I already think I've never known him, I am worried, sleepless and so sad that I cannot even pretend to be supportive, I feel I'm losing him, I've known him as the most honest person in my life who would share anything with me, would he be able to do that again? Of course not.he is excited about this and I and in such state that can't even choose whether I am going to be supportive or leave him,can't look in his eyes cause I feel betrayed, I feel he is detached and will be more
I started thinking of how I'm going to leave him and it's only been one meeting with them, I don't think our marriage will survive this