Is Freemasonry right for me?
by Justin Espey
(Hi, short and brief, lol (I tried))
Okay, so I am only 20 which I understand may not be old enough to join. I don't mind that, and I really do have some strong beliefs about how the world works, at least in my mind. I honestly study all the time (lol). It's pretty much what I do.
I have been reading a while about Freemasonry and to be honest it took me a while to take off the idea that was more or less given to me when I was younger, which I get is not an excuse, about what it means to be a Freemason. This took a great deal of understanding for me, and has essentially flipped my whole view of the supposed whole new world order (lol). Although, there are still some things I have wonders about.
I don't mean to disrespect or anything. I have never been a "church goer" and being raised atheist by a once nun-like woman was actually a great thing. I began to see things differently, in fact much differently than people around me. Although, this is not entirely a good thing. I really love the idea that I get when I think of what Freemasonry is but my question is.. vaguely um... when I read about it, to me it seems monotone, in a sense that it is of "religious ceremonies". Which I guess I really have no idea what happens as there isn't much that I have read about Freemasonry.
It took a whole range of emotions that eventually brought me back to this idea time and time again. With no direct question I am finding it hard to see the difference in joining Masonry or joining a church.
Sincerely no disrespect, I am what I'd call a believer all the way. Whereas I see the world as an internal brotherhood, and the sad part (lol) is when I read these websites, even briefly, I get the same idea over and over that there must be more.
I am not about becoming a church goer; finally I am not going to church. I have a very good idea at what god may have been in many different forms, and I have found many things about this even in my own notepads. I have had people come to my door who I feel didn't know any of this, hence mathematics, and it has been hard for me lately to find people on the same path.
I feel like I have cornered myself with the very thing I love, which is why I am reaching out to you today. I just want to know if Freemasonry is right for me. I would appreciate an honest answer from your viewpoint, and please without repeating the question I never asked back to me (lol). Thank you <3.
And, I just realized everybody gets to read my not so discreet email, XD lol. So I add, I honestly learn all the time. It's what I do :p And, I will add I am no longer athiest :) In fact I don't think I could be.